My Ocean

bangun pg ni..

rase laen.. laen sgt.

bgn dengan perasaan "semua akan berubah"

sgt tak sedap... tak best.. tak enak.

haih. entahla...... ape jd nanti enh?

awfully done by im.iedot.neve.kedekot. at 4:55 PM 2 bafflements    

BERAT
BERAT btol rasenye nak kemas kenangan 4thn ni.
BERAT btol rasenye nak bawak sume
BERAT btol rasenye nak simpan sume
BERAT btol rase nak angkut
BERAT btol kaki nak gerak
BERAT btol nak bawak hati ni ha.

kesimpulannye, berat. brg2 ni da mmg berat. campor plak ngan perasaan dlm ni. lgla berat.
jadila aku org plg berat dalam dunia ni.

kalo ade mesin penimbang jisim berat badan dan hati kompem jarum luar skala. hahaha.

takpela. entry kali ni. aku nk reveal. tak kesah la mende yg memalukan ke ape ke.

Within this 4 years, what do i, Ida Raihana, gain? (besides weight).

• Independent (dok lua dr umah, walaupun takdela jauh mane.tapi 1st night tu sebenarnye da bertakung gak air mate bile ckp fon ngan mak.hahahaha.)
• Kawan baru yg variety (mule2 jumpe mimi.. sambut parent aku n tlg angkat tilam aku.hee)
• Freedom (ni takyah ckp la kan? name pon dok lua umah)
• diff styles of learning (care belajo yg obviously laen dari kat sek la)
• Love a.k.a cinta (seek,found,loss and return of it)
• Love a.k.a syg (towards evrything i surrounded by)
  
• Tikam belakang (mase ni la kenal org yg tak matang,takde wawasan dan seangkatan dgnnye)
• uniquely experience ("menari dengamu" farahiyah. )
• tidak segan utk berkaraoke (ye.saye,SAYA IDA RAIHANA da tak malu nk karaoke.malah addicted pule kenkadang ;p )
• Fashionable (maksudnye suda berani mencube fesyen2 yg seblom ni tak terlintas.bukanla bergaye sgt.berani mencube aje)
• hold responsibilities (jawatan atau task dlm asgnment etc2)
• GIGI!! hahaha.
• True friendship.. best clan. (CGG Crew)
• apreciating

ok. 4thn kot. byk.. tak ingt lak kalo nak type sume.... tapi yg ni yg so far aku ingt. kalo ade lg aku tambah... nak cepat ni (sebok nak check out, time tu gak la sebok nak post)

awfully done by im.iedot.neve.kedekot. at 12:26 PM 2 bafflements    

life lately ni serabut.
hahaha. mesti korang ingt aku selalu serabut.
yela, bile tak serabut, aku jarang buat new post. so, bile ade post baru. mesti pasal serabut, difficulties, mengeluh, marah, sedih.. bla..bla..bla..

mebi dicampo dgn exam.
dicampo dgn emosi nak abes belaja.
emosi nak berpisah.
emosi bermulanye era baru.

tapi skang.
post aku... ttg past, current n future aku.

pasal sumone, yg aku da promise, walau ape jd, walau sakit mcm mane, walau busuk mane, die ttp kenangan terindah aku.

lately ni. all the feelings that has been missing for so long tetibe dtg blk.
wat aku confuse.

nak ikot logic, atau perasaan?

we shared so many things in our life. so many. that everything im going through currently, will relate to him for sure.
(baju,kasut,selipe,wayang,shopping complex)

thats our past.
my current.
n future, we dont know.

i humbly pray on my knees to the Almighty.

i prayed n i pray. seeking for answer.
i cried n i cry. battling with inner self confusion.
i fought n i fight. through all obstacles.

n now. i am delusional.

a friend said, i am as tough as hell.
sorry mate.

i dont know if i am anymore.

to him, if u read this...

i dont know wut to expect. i dont know.
entah.

what i know for sure,
i want both of us to be damn happy in life and after-life.

=(

even if it takes for my wound to bleed all over again,
i will.

for you, my kenangan terindah.. believe me, i will....

p/s: there will be only 2 songs left for our story..

awfully done by im.iedot.neve.kedekot. at 1:55 PM 5 bafflements    

"hidup ni tak semestinye indah, yea tak?"

"kalau semuanye indah, takde yg pahit, kita takkan tahu yang indah tu indah sebenarnya"

.quotes.

selalu aku sebut. tak kesahla dalam gurau or serious.

tapi, when i have to implement the quotes in my situation, i simply forgot. all.
which lead me to do uncertain things. stupid things.unreasonable things.

ntahla. aku rase. lately ni. aku mcm terlalu berani sgt plak. sume mende nak sahut.

aku suke. sbb rase mcm... kuat! (bukan mcm sabun kuat harimau)

tapi.. effectnye long-term. sedar. tapi masih nak. hows dat?

awfully done by im.iedot.neve.kedekot. at 11:02 AM 3 bafflements    

awfully done by im.iedot.neve.kedekot. at 8:50 PM 8 bafflements    

ohh! sgt rendu.
jarang sungguh aku nak merindui zaman kanak2 aku yg tak berape nak cerah ni.

tapi, facebook tlh membuke sejarah sek rendah aku blk..

nak jadikan cite, last saturday kot. my old fren nadiah, upload gamba2 lame...
n then, magic happens.

all of sudden, out of no where, muncul la kawan2 lame ni time nak komen gamba..

n thank god, aku bukan kategori yg tak dikenali dan dilupai.

walaupun aku dituduh sbg pembuli satu ketike dulu, takpe2. aku redha.. sekurang2nye aku tak byk skandal. hahahah...

owh! Belajar, Berazam, Berbakti!

awfully done by im.iedot.neve.kedekot. at 2:38 AM 4 bafflements    

saya suka!

takbleh nak btau sbb ape suka... tnggu smorang da tau, baru bleh bgtau thru blog. u wanna know about my life, gotta be in my reality 1st.

huhauhauahuahua....

:D

nak publish gamba...
but... hahaha... nanti lah... (nothing menarik pon)

just utk diri aku je..

awfully done by im.iedot.neve.kedekot. at 7:07 PM 0 bafflements